The feet of God is the perfect place for imperfect people.
“All Ye”, Coffey Anderson
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...What about when you know that is supposed to be true, but you feel like it’s not possible, like you can’t be there—at the feet of God.
Like you’ve crossed the line, to the point where you can’t cross back over to get to the feet of God. Every fiber in your being wants to be there, laying it all down, letting it all go, but something inside your head is telling you, “Nope, nuh uh, sorry… not this time.”
You fight it. You scream at it. You tell it to shut up, that it’s all a bunch of lies. But it just happens to be louder. It’s like the harder you seem to fight, the less it seems to be working.
It’s kind of like when you’re in a dream, and you’re fighting off the bad dude. You think you’re throwing some serious punches, but it’s like something is taking the force and power out of your hits and you end up just punching air…or does that only happen in my dreams?
Regardless, that’s EXACTLY how I feel.
And there is nothing more defeating and debilitating.
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If Julie Munroe has taught me anything in my life, it’s the importance of reading, memorizing, and meditating on Scripture. Because in moments like these, I don’t know that anything else can work. Not a pat on the back, a hug, an “I’m praying for you,”, or an “It’s alright, we’ve all screwed up,”…none of that. Something has to change on the inside. Something has to click, and it has to click for you.
So that’s what I’m gonna do. It’s what I have to do. Even though that same voice is telling me it’s pointless, that it’s not really going to work…that mere words aren’t going to change anything. Only punishment and exile are going to heal the hurt. I mean, I know that sounds so completely absurd, but I’m not kidding when I say that’s how my mind works.
But, NO!! Shut up!!! It IS completely absurd. It’s illogical. It makes no sense whatsoever. They're not just mere words...they are the words of God. And the rest is just a pile of freaking lies from the devil because he likes to torture us and make us feel miserable.
So shut up, devil. You have no right to tell me what to do…just go back to hell!!!
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Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28 (ESV)
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:37-39 (ESV)
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning;great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,“therefore I will hope in him.”
Lamentations 3:22-24 (ESV)
Give me eyes to see more of who You are
May what I behold still my anxious heart
Take what I have known and break it all apart
For you, my God, are greater still
And no sky contains
No doubt restrains all You are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know and I’m far from close
To all You are
The greatness of our God
Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
To believe that there is nothing left to fear
And that You alone are high above it all
For you, my God, are greater still
And there is nothing that could ever separate us
There is nothing that could ever separate us from Your love
No life, no death
Of this I am convinced
That you, my God, are greater still
There is nothing that could ever separate us
There is nothing that could ever separate us from Your love
Of this I am convinced
That you, my God, are greater still
No words could say or song convey all You are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know
And I’m far from close to all You are
The greatness of our God
And no sky contains
No doubt restrains all you are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know and I’m far from close
To all You are
The greatness of our God
“The Greatness of Our God”, Hillsong
…until I am convinced and the lying whispers cease.
“All Ye”, Coffey Anderson
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...What about when you know that is supposed to be true, but you feel like it’s not possible, like you can’t be there—at the feet of God.
Like you’ve crossed the line, to the point where you can’t cross back over to get to the feet of God. Every fiber in your being wants to be there, laying it all down, letting it all go, but something inside your head is telling you, “Nope, nuh uh, sorry… not this time.”
You fight it. You scream at it. You tell it to shut up, that it’s all a bunch of lies. But it just happens to be louder. It’s like the harder you seem to fight, the less it seems to be working.
It’s kind of like when you’re in a dream, and you’re fighting off the bad dude. You think you’re throwing some serious punches, but it’s like something is taking the force and power out of your hits and you end up just punching air…or does that only happen in my dreams?
Regardless, that’s EXACTLY how I feel.
And there is nothing more defeating and debilitating.
________________________________________
If Julie Munroe has taught me anything in my life, it’s the importance of reading, memorizing, and meditating on Scripture. Because in moments like these, I don’t know that anything else can work. Not a pat on the back, a hug, an “I’m praying for you,”, or an “It’s alright, we’ve all screwed up,”…none of that. Something has to change on the inside. Something has to click, and it has to click for you.
So that’s what I’m gonna do. It’s what I have to do. Even though that same voice is telling me it’s pointless, that it’s not really going to work…that mere words aren’t going to change anything. Only punishment and exile are going to heal the hurt. I mean, I know that sounds so completely absurd, but I’m not kidding when I say that’s how my mind works.
But, NO!! Shut up!!! It IS completely absurd. It’s illogical. It makes no sense whatsoever. They're not just mere words...they are the words of God. And the rest is just a pile of freaking lies from the devil because he likes to torture us and make us feel miserable.
So shut up, devil. You have no right to tell me what to do…just go back to hell!!!
_________________________________________
Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28 (ESV)
No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.
Romans 8:37-39 (ESV)
The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; his mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning;great is your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul,“therefore I will hope in him.”
Lamentations 3:22-24 (ESV)
Give me eyes to see more of who You are
May what I behold still my anxious heart
Take what I have known and break it all apart
For you, my God, are greater still
And no sky contains
No doubt restrains all You are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know and I’m far from close
To all You are
The greatness of our God
Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
To believe that there is nothing left to fear
And that You alone are high above it all
For you, my God, are greater still
And there is nothing that could ever separate us
There is nothing that could ever separate us from Your love
No life, no death
Of this I am convinced
That you, my God, are greater still
There is nothing that could ever separate us
There is nothing that could ever separate us from Your love
Of this I am convinced
That you, my God, are greater still
No words could say or song convey all You are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know
And I’m far from close to all You are
The greatness of our God
And no sky contains
No doubt restrains all you are
The greatness of our God
I spend my life to know and I’m far from close
To all You are
The greatness of our God
“The Greatness of Our God”, Hillsong
…until I am convinced and the lying whispers cease.
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